Small Win, But Still Lacking
Its been exactly a week since my coaching, and I'm pleased to say that I have finally booked a winning week in the $6's. For me, its a small victory, but after today's session dropping 12 buy ins it leaves a really sour taste in my mouth. Losing sessions really seem to hit me hard, and when you get continuous bad beats and bvb cooler hands and no suckout equity, it becomes another skill keeping a cool head and cutting your losses.
"Should" is a really negative word. It does so much damage, and people don't know it. When we say should, it means nothing really, its about expectations and perfectionism. Its what our parents want us to be. Or, if your parents aren't like that, what you think that they would want you to be. In the same way, we think about poker in the same way, with being the best and how we should have 'called this' and 'folded that'. I hate having that mentality of thinking I should be the best, and just be happy with the now. Of course, everyone wants to be the best, but the question is, once your there, are you going to be happy? The answer is probably no, because you'll never know your there, because you'll be saying that you "should" be even better...
However, I would say that I'm happier with my play now. There is consistency and confidence in my shoves. Hopefully I will regrind up my losses and get back to winning ways.
For March I've organized a mini prop bet with other Poker VT members. The bet is $50 from each of us for the one who makes the most profit in 1000 games starting from the beginning of the month. Hopefully it'll motivate me to work harder at my game. I'm so glad I got the coaching, I really didn't realize how bad I was playing some spots and its really helped a ton. I will do a follow up session in a few weeks, to see if I have any more holes to plug up.
