Reflection on September

As September draws to a close, I'm am pretty bummed out to say that the results have not been going my way. So no cigar, no Alba unfortunately...

I am pissed about the way things have turned out at the $16s, 3 months ago after finally crushing the $6s 2 months in a row after playing a ton of games I really did think that I could consider myself a winning player, and that I could start to make some money now. Granted, even if I was shit $1 a game should still land me a few G's with the volume I can put in.

But that just isn't the way things have turned out. I would probably have made more money playing the $6s, but fuck it, its all a process and I'm still a student of the game. I've had this experience of continuously feeling being under EV at the $6's, and well, this picture of all my $16s here tells the story...

I've stopped posting complainy style threads on forums asking "Is this normal?" shit, coz 1. Its not constuctive and 2. Will get responses like this;

- "$16s are not profitable games anymore, too many regs, play MTTs or Cash"

Then I will respond like this;

Week in week out I've checked these guys and their results are solid. So they're obviously doing something I'm not. They are better then me. I will keep trying, keep improving and NOT GIVE UP like all those other "STT complainers" who aren't willing to work hard after hitting a blip.

I am doing something wrong, its my fault and I will correct it. Variance sucks, and yesterday I played 164 games and got crushed in 3 sets losing $500, which was literally 6 days previous worth of grinding. Truth be told I'm winning small, then losing big. My long sessions generally speaking tend to lose big rather then make a lot of money. I am making too many mistakes.

This rant has a bit of negativity to it, and I'm sorry about that. So to positive it up I'm pleased to say that I'm well on course to make Supernova within the first year of playing properly on PokerStars. I have around 35000 VPPs left, which is around 6000 $16s and that's easily achievable with 2k games a month. Of course I will try and get that sooner and reap the benefits quickly! I'm saving my FPPs and it will pay off!

When I started the year I played $3 STTs and moved up! I've probably deposited all together $300, and used that to make tons, and pay for a holiday half way across the world to visit my best friend! I hope things will continue that way, gonna keep working hard!

In October I plan to put in solid numbers. I want to reach 3000 games, so I'm gonna try and play 90 games a day min. If I put in good volume next month, hopefully I can get Supernova by November which would be good coz I plan to visit Hong Kong in December (where my parents are from). I loooove HK and its gonna be a great incentive to keep going. Next year I plan to go to Thailand too, so gonna my ass in gear and step it up!